Yea! Because I would lose my only friend
Yeah but isnāt it weird to be friends with someone you know has feelings for you?
I donāt think he will, but what if he took advantage of it
Of me making myself vulnerable to him and me not having anything on him in return
I donāt know if heās want that
Maybe I should but I just get so nervous like Iām gonna throw up
Only times Iāve slightly believed in demons from that feeling š«
Well tbh I just feel like those exorcisms
They just puke like a stream
Iām sorry that was really disgusting but I just get nervous down to my gut and it literally feels like Iām about to explode. At first I thought it was just bad kebab or something we had on our hangout
I just wish I could kiss his skin even if heās just sleeping but without consequences.
Yeahā¦ Iāll just have to figure out a way to start the conversation but Iāve done that for like a year now
And it always ends up getting interrupted, awkward or just me procrastinating
If I did that Iād just wrestle him and kiss him lmao
The worst that could happen would be that he pushes me away and says āew wtf you freak. Now youāre just going for a round or what?ā And he tells me to leave and never contact him again. That would be the worst thing to happen
And then on my way home a truck only nearly runs me overā¦ thatās be the worst
Itās all good, you donāt have to
But we do talk so yeah it would make things weird so Iām scuurred
Anyway I told him about my dream tonight and Iāll wait and see what he answers. I hope he doesnāt get too creeped out by my pregnancy dream lmao
