Not in a while I haven’t delfy
I think relationships are based on attachment which is the very root of suffering, and not love. If you loved someone you wouldn’t want to get them attached and suffer. We only desire people rather than love them.
Love is selfless, desire is ego based. Knowing this I wouldn’t get in relationships
I think you feel happy spending because when u want something, you’re dissatisfied. When u get it u feel good. But it’s not really the fact that u have the thingu wanted that is making u feel good. It is the fact that you no longer want it
Better to not want anything
and let it happen as it nay