I cant ever imagine ever harming my child in that way ever. But my alcoholic husband has. So I know how you feel. Im a mother and my heart breaks for you and your sisters.
I wish and hope and pray you all will fair better in this life and get the justice you deserve.
Know this: When the alcohol fades, he is reminded of his failures, especially his awfulness to you and your sisters. It creeps into his being and his thoughts like an itch that wont go away. He feels some pain and pierces his heart and he hurts although you will never see this. And he will keep hiding it with more drinking or meds or his continuous awful behavior. But he is a parent and every parent that ever had a child feels. Pride is what he has and what will kill him in the end.
That does suck. It sucks to not have control of who our family or parents end up to be. But, perhaps this was your mission, to survive this and be better. So the next time, if you believe in that, your life will be easier. Your father’s won’t.
True. But that’s because most of them are substance abusers, psychotics, or have deeply-rooted issues which disables them from forming connections with their childchildren which they shouldn’t have had in the first place. Looking closely at these cases, often, their children were born from accidents or unwanted pregnancies.
Anyway, Sinister, I and the others here, wish you well. Keep on moving up and onwards. Dont look back. You have a future ahead that needs more attention than your father. I wish you good luck.