Well it was love but now I don't know if it's love again... Like I know I have feelings for him but is it love ? Is it friendly ? And I know 10 months is not a long time, but I'm asking so many questions to myself about this relationship... I don't think we are at the same place and we don't have the same maturity...
We're young and I don't have the feeling that I really live my life and have much experience... I'm in a new town and I don't know anyone and I don't know how to make friends... He's the only one I know here ..
>>> There are some things about him that make ...
Yeah of course like everyone ๐
but I never obligate myself to endure anything that make me uncomfortable, so I don't know if it's just for that or if it's more that that...
I try to get help from my family and the only thing they said it's like "think about it and talk to your boyfriend"
I know I'm the only one who can really know and take the decision but I just need help to clarify my thoughts ๐
>>> Are you living together?
No
He don't want to go in an appart before he finish school (university) and I'm full time employee
>>> Maybe this boy is only good enough for jus...
You mean like f*ck friend ?!๐๐
>>> How do you think we could help you?
I don't know, right now I just have the impression that I'm alone and I don't want to, but I can't talk with him about that before I clarified my mind and I don't know how
He's definitely more in love than me and it's a good guy and I don't wanna hurt him, but I feel kinda uncomfortable
But I can't just tell him that he will ask me to explain why and how and I won't know what to say๐ฉ
>>> You canโt stay in a relationship just beca...
I know, that'll make me sick literally ๐
>>> Or you canโt stay in a relationship just c...
I can't it'll be worst
Well I know I'm uncomfortable and I don't think I wanna stay in this relationship but I don't know the "why I'm uncomfortable"
>>> And itโs ok to seek a cuddle buddy in him ...
No way that he'll be okay with that๐
But I know that he'll ask me to try to understand and try to repair things between us
I don't need s*x I need friend, do something, activities (not only)
Yesterday he tell me that he think I try to self-sabotaging
I think he want me to see a psychologist ๐
Like I already try that to understand me and it doesn't even help a bit๐
>>> And heโs started panicking
He know that I don't feel right and I need time to think
I'm an open book so he saw how I act and knew that something was weird about me
Well thanks for your help, I think that I know what to do even if I'll probably hurt him, I need to be alone right now
