I can't fcking stand it. How does she think it feels when she sends me videos of the night out she didnt invite me to
I cant open that bs, every notification feels like a fking dagger. How would i even respond? "Looks fun!! Wish you invited me!" Why are you sending them here, you two are together , send them to her not me. It feels like im a dog getting my nose rubbed in sht
I kinda have a long one, that i doubt anyone could have anything to really say about
But 5 years ago my first love took his own life. And my dad said to me "i don't know why you care, you broke up with him" it took years of therapy to forgive him. Today he tells me it never happened and I'm lying to make him look bad like i lied about what his dad did to me. His dad hurt everyone in his life. I was so scared i went and sliced my arm to see if this was reality. I haven't done that in years and never that badly too
I've spent 5 years with that being an integral part of my story. To realize he only said that to try and make me feel better, that he didn't say that because hes absent of all empathy. But now??? I don't know what my reality is and i know everything that's happening today is real. And I'll have my arm to remember how confusing this all really is
